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::deep breath::

Okay. Most people who know me... like, at all? Know that I hate apologizing for things. Because... I hate to admit that I'm wrong, pretty much ever. Just... how I am, I guess. But... sometimes, I am wrong. Or just stupid.

So let me say... this is not easy for me. And trying to talk to people that I miss that I think... pretty much hate me? Yeah, it terrifies the living fuck out of me. But I'm going to put this as simply as possible.

All of you at [livejournal.com profile] np_hogwarts? I miss you. I'm sorry for just... up and leaving. I'm sorry for being a complete bitch to people who were my friends and not just random people I RPed with. For stupid defriending nonsense and disappearing without working anything out and for... everything.

And... I don't want this to seem like I'm just doing it because I want back in the game, either. That's not what this is about, not really. And, honestly? If you don't want me back? ...say so. Seriously. Because if that's how you feel, then... then at least I'll know. And if everyone/enough people feel that way? Then I'll know better, and I'll stay away. And just work on things with the people that want to work on things. But... if you want to work things out? Then I want to work things out. Like... I really do. And I know it'll take work, on my part more than anything else, but... I really do miss you guys.

I don't really know what else to say, because no matter what I write in this post, it doesn't seem right. Or like enough. Or... something.

So... I mean, I guess that's it. I'm just... I'm sorry. I'm going to send out some emails after this, and... if you want to say anything, comment. If you don't want it on lj... my aim is brave x crazy. Or my email is bravexcrazy@gmail.com I'm leaving this entry public... so feel free to direct people to it. In fact, please do.
athra: (Default)
Okay, I can't do this.

Starting today, I'm going friends-only with this journal. And I've just done a major friends cut. I don't mean to offend anyone, or not MOST of you anyway.

And to those of you who read my journal and don't know the first thing about what's going on: I apologize to all of you.
athra: (Default)
I'm going to make this as simple as I can.

I've taken myself out of Now Playing. This is just... it's something that I need to do, for me. In fact, don't expect to see me in the DoC chat room anymore, either.

I've not done a friends cut. I thought about it, some, but I haven't.

If you want to defriend me, then I understand -- go right ahead, I won't be offended.

I'm not trying to cause drama, I'm trying to do something that I need to do for me.

I'm sorry... but for those of you that still want to be friends with me? I'm always on AIM... even if I'm not at my computer, I'm signed on, you can drop me a line. Or leave a comment. Or whatever you want to do.
athra: ([misc] boo whore)
So. [livejournal.com profile] barbed_whispers nudged me, so I guess I should post.

Even though I have no idea what to post about. Right then.

Life is... going on as usual? I go to work, either have a good time or don't, come home and get on the computer, and occassionally hang out with people just to be different. [livejournal.com profile] takarakanashi came over on Tuesday, which was fun, and then [livejournal.com profile] fluffymaru and I hung out yesterday and today, which is always fun and doesn't happen nearly often enough anymore. :(

Yeah anyway. See, this is why I don't update. I always think I have something interesting to talk about, but I really don't.

Yes, I'm still obsessed with that rp [[livejournal.com profile] np_hogwarts] and the people I know through it [<3 to [livejournal.com profile] drunkoncheese] and that's okay.

I very much love [livejournal.com profile] bjt_fan, too. <333333333 yeah, that comm ROCKS.

JACON is close. ndjvbfjdsn.

And I'm broke again. ::facepalm:: WHATEVER, BANK, WHATEVER.

...cosplay plans still in the works, though. haha, wow, I kind of suck. List soon-ish? Maybe. WHATEVER.

Okay I posted. So Lis can STFU. woo.

athra: ([DoC] Smash loveburns)

post this in your journal if you love DoC
athra: ([Tenipuri] Jirou dance)
...okay, wow. Updating from the actual lj page and not through Semagic is just... weird. I don't like it. heh.

anyway.

FINALS ARE OVER FOR MEEEE. ::does the dance of HELL YEAH and YAY!::

However, I am exhausted. I was up until four in the fucking morning this morning, finishing [or, uh, starting and finishing, haha] a paper for my Humanities class. Which, thanks to the time-table, probably sucks, but I adamantly refused to reread it today, because that would just have depressed me, so it's turned in and I suppose we'll just see how that goes.

[I could go into a long rant here about how I blame DoC for how long it took me to finish my paper, but I suppose that's obvious so I won't.]

I go into work today at 5, though, and I'm there until 11... and then Narnia at midnight. It's a damn good thing I don't have work or school tomorrow, because I am going to be dead. And Narnia bettwe be an excellent movie, or I may just fall asleep during it. haha. ha. yeah.

In more vague news, isn't it strange how things happen or hit you when you don't expect them to?
Yeah. [[livejournal.com profile] simplykatie, I need to talk to you. To [livejournal.com profile] fluffymaru, too, but I can do that tonight maybe? Whatever.]

Anyway. I think I'll go nap for an hour before work.
athra: (Default)
So it's been a while since I've updated, especially with anything of importance.

Nano is going... going. I don't even know what my wordcount is write now, because I have a lot written out by hand that I'm in the middle of transcribing.

GoF was a great movie. I have nitpicks, but overall I really enjoyed it, and it's definitely my favorite of the movies now.

[livejournal.com profile] hogwartsishome has eaten my soul, but especially [livejournal.com profile] hihnow_playing.

..yeah, okay, so it's not like this post is important either, but now everyone knows I'm alive anyway.

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