i want life in every word

So, I made that blog that I was talking about making in my last post. After some discussion with imthelobster, I didn't actually buy a domain, but am just hosting it on Wordpress for the moment. If I actually keep up with it, I'll get the domain later (I did settle on a name I would want for it, anyway) and just figure out how to integrate Wordpress into it, which should be loads of fun! Anyway, it's here if you're interested.

idk, but to be honest even if no one reads it ever, I think it's good for me. It's a small step, but it's a step towards feeling creative again. I haven't felt that way in a long time, and I miss it.

Which, on that note, I actually wrote something the other morning. Fictional something, I mean. It's short, incomplete, probably wildly stupid, and full of ashley-and-lisa-have-brains-on-crack, BUT none of that is the point. The point is that I wrote something, and it felt good. I might even continue to work on it, even if barbed_whispers is the only one who would find it interesting hahaha.

I've been taking a step back from playing WoW for the last week, two weeks, or so. I'm not quitting the game entirely by any means, but just separating myself from it a little bit. I'll be honest, it mostly started because of imthelobster, but it has been really good for me, I think. I've been feeling a lot better about life in general for the last couple weeks. To be clear, I don't think that WoW was causing my depression, but I do believe now that it was enabling it to some extent. I've changed a few other things, too, so it's not the only fix, but it's been one of them, and yeah, it's been good. I feel a bit more a part of the world than I have in a while, which is strange, but nice.

Work has been better, too. I can't decide if it's better because I've been more relaxed and happy, or if I'm more relaxed and happy partly because it's better. I guess it doesn't really matter which one, because the point is, both things are true! I still hate the hours, a lot, but at least I'm not hating the job itself nearly as much, which is a huge step up, so I'll take it.

On a final note: one other change that has been happening is the way that I eat (again, mostly facilitated by imthelobster). It's not a diet, really, just a watching portions / type of food you eat, kind of a thing. I'm still eating the things I like, just being a bit smarter about it. I still have a long way to go in that regard, since I tend to have very little willpower when it comes to food (or most anything, if I'm being honest), BUT small steps. And I have lost about 5 pounds or so, so yay for that!

I started to post an entry that was entirely wow-related, but really, almost no one on my flist gets it. So instead:

( a small rant will go under this cut text )

Aaaaaanyway.

So, elleren arrives tomorrow. For those of you that don't know, that's imthelobster's dad. Ahh! I keep thinking that the house is not nearly ready enough :( Which is probably dumb, but WHATEVS I am allowed to be worried about this sort of thing!

My morning thus far:

* buildyourwalls totally burned herself. You guys, I am not the person to have help you with injuries. I have nothing, I know nothing, I am useless.
* Watching the end of Love Actually. NFCNLKNLK THAT MOVIE MAKES ME HAPPY.
* Half-ass watching Donnie Darko. It's on in the background, and I've never seen it before. I really should actually watch it at some point, though. I have NO IDEA what it going on right now, heh.
* Working on Loremaster in WoW. Blegh. Getting bored, and kind of frustrated, with that.

( randomness with screencaps inside )

There's only three because I am at work and I r dum and didn't upload anymore before leaving for work. :(

Aaaaand okay, done with the completely random entry now. >.>